Stuck in a thought storm

Not so long ago, one of my mentors, shared something with me that gave me a deeper understanding of our experience, which has helped me live my own life with greater ease. If you have been following my posts, you will know that I have spoken about the principles that are behind our experience. For those of you who are new to my musings, the principles describe our experience of life in the following way:

1) There is some kind of intelligence (for lack of a better word) that determines the structure of the world and universe we live in. The structure of what we call nature and the inherent intelligence behind it is simply spectacular. And, it’s easy to forget because we like to think of ourselves as being separate and independent, and we are to some degree, but we are also part of this intelligence.

I recently read something in The Guardian, written by Clare Carlisle (found here), where she writes about how the philosopher Baruch Spinoza described the relationship between us and this intelligence with the analogy between a wave and the ocean. What follows is my interpretation of it, with my own embellishments. :-)

As much as each individual wave can be identified and lives on its own, with its own identity, with its own size, characteristics, and uniqueness, it is still part of the ocean and it cannot be separated from it. The wave is as much a part of the ocean as the water found in its depths. Just as each of us has our own identity within the greater ocean of energy that makes up our entire universe.

2) Every single one of us has an ability to recognize our own existence. We are aware of the fact that we are alive. For example, you are able to recognize the experience you are having as you read my words. It is this same ability that allows us to feel our emotions, our state of mind, or level of consciousness.

3) We relate to the world around is via thought, both conscious thought (what I often refer to as personal thought) and a myriad of unconscious thought.

So, what does all this have to do with my thought storm and the insight that I got from my mentor’s words, which lead me to live with more peace of mind? One of the many conversations relating to this understanding of the principles behind our experience of life is one about how a thought only has life when we give it attention. And the fact of the matter is that I am human and as such, will find myself stuck in thought from time to time.

A couple of days ago, I was having a conversation with a friend of mine and I started to feel insecure about myself afterwards. That insecure thinking has lead to what I am referring to a thought storm. The thoughts come to my mind about how I could have done something differently, how I am not capable enough, how I am not good enough, how I should understand things better, how I should be more capable, how others are able to do it so why can’t I, and so on and so on. I can go on, but I imagine that most of you can easily continue the list for me since we have all been stuck in these thought storms at some point or another.

About a month ago, my mentor was sharing with me that as much as we can respect when we are not in a good state of mind, we also don’t need to give it importance. In my earlier posts, I’ve shared with you how when we are not in good states, the quality of our thinking is directly proportional to the level that we are in. I also wrote about how it’s often a good idea to be aware of the fact that we are not in a good place so that we don’t make a mess of our lives (and with those around us), which we would need to clean up later. However, as much as this is true, it’s also important to recognize how easy it is to respect a state of mind so much that it then becomes an excuse and a limitation.

The truth of the matter is that I have been in a mood lately where it’s been really easy for me to drop into a low state of mind. I’m aware of this and I am also going on with my life. As much as I am respecting the fact that the quality of my thinking is not at its best, which means I’m not making any life changing decision, I’m still doing the things I want to do. My mood will pass, as it always does. In fact, engaging in the things that I want to do and focusing on them naturally releases me from being stuck in my thinking.

So, I recognize that my thought storm is fed by my low state of mind. I also know that I feel what I feel without giving it much importance and when I’m in a better state, the view I have of the insecurity that I shared with you above will be completely different. My thinking always changes when I let it do its thing – thoughts come and go all the time, they only stay when we feed them with our attention.

Let me leave you with a closing comment. Notice how even when we are in the middle of the worst thought storm ever, there are always moments when we feel better, when the storm is quiet. I know for myself, it’s in those moments when it’s really easy for me recognize the storm is missing and innocently start thinking about it, feeding it attention, and bringing it back into life once again. As I look at the principles behind my experience more and more, it’s easier and faster for me to recognize this pattern, which helps me get out of the storm with less damage to myself and others.

Let me know if you have any questions or would want to go deeper into this conversation.

Until next time, may the four winds continue to guide your way.

Lot’s of love,